A First in L and P

Tonight's one of those nights when out-of-the-blue, some overly random and shocking thing would happen to me. 

So I did my usual routine of checking my SNS [social networking sites] and that includes Facebook, Blogspot, Tumblr, LiveJournal, Twitter, Wordpress, and Cyworld. And while I was browsing one of those sites, someone just left me a message, saying: "kamusta?" For a while i was just staring at the name that registered there. To be honest, I was actually suppressing a smile! So before I knew it, I was exchanging messages with the person. I can't help but smile and laugh each time because our conversation was just like our usual conversation way back in high school. The feeling was effin weird. I felt so happy because after so many years of no communication of any form, I finally had the opportunity to talk to that person. But at the same time, I felt like crying because I was having flashbacks at that moment. The feeling was totally weird. I was having mixed emotions and flashbacks at the same time so I literally had a lot of things going on my head. And I realized that: "no matter how you try to forget the past, it will always comes back to you no matter what because you experienced that ONCE and its your memory FOREVER." Because I seriously thought that I was over it...but hell., I was wrong...

That person WAS [and maybe IS still] the rainbow that paints my life with a lot of colors. 

He was my friend, my brother, my father, my counselor. I learned a lot of things from him - - mostly about life and love.

He was [and maybe IS still] the sky my eyes loved to stare at. And he aided in some transformation in me. From him, I learned:

• how to love without expecting anything in return
• how to appreciate the importance every little things that we usually ignore
• how to stay composed even if I'm freakin chaotic inside
• how to give without looking for a reason to do so
• how to sacrifice one's interest for the betterment of more people
• how to gracefully accept failure and see it's good points
• how to hold on and let go at the right moment

I don't know, but when we separated for some valid reasons that I chose to accept as the inevitable, I felt my spirit burst into nothingness. It's like inside there's a black hole that needs to be patch up or else it would sip me whole. It took me a year and a half to finally face myself in the mirror and manage to say that: "I'm really fine." Although the Christmas season would always make me feel happy and sad at the same time, thinking of him doesn't make me cry or feel like crying anymore. Instead, reminiscing always make me smile and feel lucky to have met him even for a while.

Although this night gave me quite a shock (I did said his message rattled my stable emotions, right?) I'll thank God for giving me a chance to communicate again with him. At least, now I know that I'm not totally over his shadow and a part of me is still clinging to either the love I felt during that time or the pain I felt after that...

Hm...but God is truly good 'cause he placed me in my current situation just when I'm sure that I'm no longer "17" 'cause if I met "37" again during the time when I'm still trying to pull myself out of the quick sand --which is my hold to my feelings for "17" -- I'll most probably end up in another situation I'm gonna hate. At least, at this point in time, I'm sure of what I truly feel and even if "17" would come back - - which I'm a hundred percent sure, he will not - -I would just graciously turn my back on him with a smile on my face...

Nurses Leading Health Care Initiatives to Go Green

Florence Nighingale, the founder of the Nursing profession, was the first to identify the connection between the human health and the environment. Through her keen observation, she was able to realize that the status of the environment a person is in greatly affects how his/ her health would progress. And this theory was called 'Environmental theory" since it basically focuses on the patient's environment.Thus, through Nightingale's Environmental Theory, the nursing profession became a strong advocate of taking care of the environment.


As an active advocate of Environmentalism, the nursing profession initiates recycling, the conservation of energy and water, and the consumption of organic foods rather than the commercialized products.


Since the nurses treat their patients in a context, nurses not only look in to the client's personal aspect. More than the personal (physical) aspect of the patient, nurses look further to the patient's emotional, spiritual, social, cultural and environmental aspect which can greatly affect the clients health. By looking at things in a different lense, nurses are able to understand the importance of having a hazard-free and clean environment in relation to their patient's health status.


Further more, since hospitals are considered an environment, it is but important to keep the hospitals safe and clean so as to not compromise with the patient's health.


It's really nice because I, too, am an active advocate for the environment. And being a nursing student, I feel proud that the profession I am currently trying to pursue shares the same color as mine: GREEN. In my opinion, it is but important to keep our environment clean and in one piece again because this is our home, and home is where everythings starts and end. And since this is everybody's home, shouldn't the other profession follow too the footsteps of the nursing profession in embracing environmentalism?


 SOURCE:
News: Spotlight on Nursing

-MSG-

                           

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I wrote this poem with one person in my mind: "Him"

It's the 28th of the month., it's our chosen day for each other. Even though he have an early volleyball training tomorrow, he insisted on going back to Lipa just to spend the day with me even if it will only allow us a couple of hours to be together. I really felt cherished when he told me that it's fine, cause it's just a small sacrifice compared to the regret he'll feel if he'll let that day pass with him being without me. How sweet of him! ^^ hahah...But you know what? He's always sweet and nice that sometimes I think that all his words were just sugar-coated shallow ones.

While I was writing the poem, i really felt the "writer's block" syndrome in me and I was like: "Oh hell! Come on! I need to write something!" Funny how writing a poem for him made me that giddy :P Oh well, at least I made two poems for him (although I failed to create a graphic design for the second poem U_U ) and I've posted the first poem on his wall in FB ^^

I'll be seeing him in six hours., so excited about it :)

HAPPY 28th ReivEm!!!

work, work, work, and more work

summer classes., just can't get enough it - ironically., everything's pretty piled up and on the rush now a days and that just made me feel TOTALLY lucky that i still CAN breath U_U but at least our workload's been chopped down a bit -just a bit :P - i feel so sleepy but i still can't go to sleep., need to finish my work before i jump to dreamland., and so..i'm multi-tasking again in hope of finishing things earlier., geared up in my powerpoint presentation for tomorrow while fishing my way in photoshop, creating a graphics for my poem., whew! hope things will lighten up SOONER.,

Hello World!

so..after how many months was that? hahah...i'm finally making use of my blog., yay! *dances around* and i'll probably end up staying here for a bit longer now ^^ welcome to myself AGAIN :D